Welcome to Debtor’s Prison

I can’t afford to file bankruptcy.  That’s one rather frightening realisation I came to during my Wednesday morning meeting with a bankruptcy lawyer.  Mind you, I’m pressing on through this lovely little process.  For those of you (the many, many of you) who are considering this journey, let me take you along mine for a [...]

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Strawberry Fields Forever

I’ve had that song stuck in my head for several days now, and that’s not particularly unpleasant.  It’s a lovely song.  Listening to it today, though, I conceptualised the lyrics in a new way.  There’s a bit that resounds with me and will likely resound with other SRA survivors–
Always, know sometimes think it’s me
But you [...]

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Dear Doomsdayers

Do *not* tell me about the world.  Don’t tell me about its beginning or your idea of its end.  I stopped listening quite some time ago.  Yes, you can still get to me.  Your prophecies were burnt, beaten, and otherwise implanted in my mind.  I suffered unspeakable conditions because of you.  And what’s worse, you [...]

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Pride in Tradition

I just watched the film ‘The Queen’ starring Helen Mirren, and it made me proud, once again, to be British.  Ours is a nation steeped in tradition and strengthened by the face of our Monarchy.
I remember being in the crowd at Buckingham Palace not long after the death of Princess Diana.  My sister and I, [...]

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A Well-Deserved Thank You

…to the rescue workers who helped us in the aftermath of the ice storm.  Six months later, some of you are still here and still helping us rebuild.  I spoke this morning with a man from Mississippi who was helping to repair a length of rail track here, and he made me smile.  It’s amazing [...]

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Inspiration

Yesterday was a bit difficult, and as I’ve said many times, music gets me through sometimes.  One of the most peaceful and inspirational songs I’ve ever heard is Colin Hay’s ‘Waiting for My Real Life to Begin,’ so I wanted to post it here in hopes that someone else might be comforted by it as [...]

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How’d You Find Me?

I’ve hesitated to write this post for some time in fear that I might insult somebody.  However, things are just getting too good to keep to myself.  Some of the search terms people use to find this blog are *hilarious.*  I think my all time favourite is ‘Big Frank Dickenson.’
Today’s best is ‘my thoughts are [...]

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Working in a Different Age

I’m in my late twenties, but most of the time I still feel stuck in my teenage years.  My twenties have definitely been tumultuous.  Maybe that’s what I’m feeling.  Maybe it’s like my twenties are on pause.  I’d really hate to stay a decade behind from here on out, though.
During the last therapy session, my [...]

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Zombie Days

I’m moving in a fog.  I’m participating in my life, but everything is blurred.  It doesn’t feel like a DID, personality switching issue.  Just a general fog.  The recent re-awakening of grief issues has thrown everything in to chaos, and I cannot seem to get the bloody fog to lift.
My ability to focus is relatively [...]

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A Message from Lily

Lily, my internal five-year-old, would like to tell everyone in America that ‘A Charlie Brown Christmas’ is coming on television 16 Dec at 8:00PM Eastern Standard Time on the ABC network. Since we’ve been here, she has come to absolutely love the Peanuts cartoons. I’ll have to agree!
Happy viewing!

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