I’ve been thinking quite alot about my mother lately. We’ve just passed her birthday, and, for some reason, I’ve missed her more this year. It might well be because of losing the baby. I would love for my parents to have met their granddaughter, and with her death, I just wanted my mother there to [...]
Posts Tagged ‘best friend’
Memories
Posted in Abuse, Friends & Family, Grief & Loss, Mental Health, Therapy, tagged Abuse, best friend, family of choice, grief, memories, Mental Health, Therapy on 4 March 2012 | 3 Comments »
Someone Else’s Been Dreaming
Posted in Dissociative Identity Disorder, Friends & Family, Humour, Mental Health, tagged alters, best friend, child alters, Dissociative Identity Disorder, Lily, Mental Health on 18 December 2011 | Leave a Comment »
I haven’t written about multiplicity in a bit, largely because of the discomfort factor. As this is, in part, a blog about that, though, I wanted to share the latest multiple hilarity. This morning, I woke up with tears running down my face and really swollen eyes. Obviously, someone had been sobbing. I had no [...]
Unexplained Panic
Posted in Friends & Family, Grief & Loss, Health, Mental Health, tagged best friend, child loss, grief, Health, holidays, Mental Health, panic attacks, parental bereavement on 16 December 2011 | 4 Comments »
I’m dealing with something I do not understand and hoping some of you who read this blog can give me some insight. This is a rough time of year, of course. We’re coming on the first anniversary of my daughter’s death, just passed the 11th anniversary of my sister’s death, and are in the middle [...]
Distractions
Posted in Abuse, Friends & Family, Mental Health, Ritual Abuse, tagged Abuse, best friend, cults, dissociation, family of choice, memories, Mental Health, satanic ritual abuse on 2 October 2011 | Leave a Comment »
The last time I was hurt by the Really Bad People, one thing that distracted me was the thought that my best friend is coming with me next summer to see my FOC. He hasn’t been there in three years, so I had to make it through. That was a relatively constant chorus in my [...]
Bipolar Disorder Sucks
Posted in Dissociative Identity Disorder, Mental Health, tagged atypical antipsychotics, best friend, bipolar disorder, Dissociative Identity Disorder, frustration, Mental Health, psychiatrist, side effects, stress, Zyprexa on 12 September 2011 | Leave a Comment »
to use an American phrase that sometimes says it perfectly. I’m having trouble. Today, I’m hypo-manic but rapid cycling all the same. I can’t slow down my thoughts, which are racing from intense anger to deep sadness. My hands are literally shaking from the energy, and I can’t deal with even the slightest of changes [...]
Labels
Posted in Abuse, Dissociative Identity Disorder, General Ranting, Mental Health, Ritual Abuse, tagged Abuse, best friend, DID systems, Dissociative Identity Disorder, family of choice, frustration, Mental Health, rant, satanic ritual abuse, self awareness on 8 August 2011 | 1 Comment »
I’ve been thinking quite alot lately about terms used to refer to people with DID. The most common, of course, is ‘multiple.’ Being called that makes my skin crawl, though, so I’ve spent some time trying to figure out the cause of such an extreme reaction. Disclaimer: This is my opinion about my experience as [...]
After the Storms
Posted in Dissociative Identity Disorder, Friends & Family, General Ranting, tagged best friend, child alters, cult prophecies, DID systems, Dissociative Identity Disorder, flood, Lily, Mairead, natural disasters, Universe on 28 April 2011 | 1 Comment »
We awoke to an odd sight this morning– sun. It’s been a while. In fact, the last time it was actually sunny was a week ago. We had days of rain in London, too, but not usually with this kind of storms. I’d never been in a flood til now. I’m staying with a friend [...]
Flashbacks & Realisations
Posted in Abuse, Dissociative Identity Disorder, Mental Health, Ritual Abuse, Therapy, tagged Abuse, alters, best friend, child alters, cults, Dissociative Identity Disorder, family of choice, flashbacks, Lily, satanic ritual abuse, Therapy, Torchwood on 3 April 2011 | 2 Comments »
My best friend and I were watching Torchwood on Friday night, as we’ve taken to doing relatively frequently, and I got thrown in to a flashback. The show is primarily science fiction. This episode, however, involved nothing more than incredibly sick human beings. I felt myself tensing a bit, but nothing really pressing alarmed me. [...]
Falling Down
Posted in Dissociative Identity Disorder, Friends & Family, Grief & Loss, Mental Health, tagged best friend, child loss, Dissociative Identity Disorder, emotions, grief, Mental Health, parental bereavement on 16 January 2011 | 1 Comment »
I really feel like I am drowning. I’m trying not to feel that way, but I’m not overcoming that feeling just yet. It seems overly dramatic, but my mind is stuck in That Day at That Time. I can’t get away from it, and part of me doesn’t want to. Part of me wants to [...]
A Toast
Posted in Friends & Family, Grief & Loss, Mental Health, tagged best friend, family of choice, grief, siblings, suicide on 7 December 2010 | Leave a Comment »
to my younger sister, who would have been 22 on Saturday and passed away from suicide 10 years ago today. Words cannot do this child justice. She was one of the most interesting people I’ve ever had the pleasure to meet, and we miss her dearly. Many thanks to my friend D who was the [...]
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