Name that Alter

I’m quite familiar with many types of alters, being quite familiar with many DID systems.  However, there is a specific alter type that I can’s seem to find.  This alter functions *like* and introject, but she doesn’t quite meet that criteria.  She follows a similar behavioural pattern to an outside abuser, uses many of the [...]

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My Alters…

…want to sign my cast.  Explain that one to outside people. I had a bit of a disagreement with a cult member on Friday, and that left me with a fractured hand.  It’s only a minor fracture, and the cast should be removed on 6 April.  Still, I think it’s hysterical that a group of [...]

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Silence

I’ve heard no voices in my head today.  I only heard a few yesterday.  It’s quite odd, this silence.  I haven’t decided yet whether it is good silence or bad.  It’s just different. Friday, Little Peoples popped up to tell me they no longer existed.  By virtue of the fact that they could tell me [...]

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Labels

I’ve been thinking quite alot lately about terms used to refer to people with DID. The most common, of course, is ‘multiple.’ Being called that makes my skin crawl, though, so I’ve spent some time trying to figure out the cause of such an extreme reaction. Disclaimer: This is my opinion about my experience as [...]

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After the Storms

We awoke to an odd sight this morning– sun.  It’s been a while.  In fact, the last time it was actually sunny was a week ago.  We had days of rain in London, too, but not usually with this kind of storms.  I’d never been in a flood til now. I’m staying with a friend [...]

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Changes

I seem to have found myself a bit pregnant.  Now, for the those of you who are still breathing or have regained consciousness, let me explain that little experience.  Mairead had been having an on-again off-again relationship with someone.  At first, I knew about the relationship and was OK with it.  Yes, the relationship was [...]

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Semi-human Alters

I rang in the new year with an ‘interesting’ flashback.  It’s unusual for me to talk about the abuse my sister and I faced from our mother.  She was abusive in a more conventional sense, for lack of better terms.  Something sparked a memory, though, and I started talking to my best friend about being [...]

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Little Messages

The child alters among my internal folk are divided into three main groups– Little Littles, Littles, and Middle Littles.  The smallest of all are, appropriately, Little Littles.  They are very new discoveries, and the oldest is two at best.  They’re structured a bit strangely, and they don’t communicate often.  Littles and Middle Littles, however, *do* [...]

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I Me Wed?

Two of my insiders announced to me on Saturday morning that they had got married the night before.  I knew they were an item, for lack of better terms, but they hadn’t told me they were considering marriage.  Saturday morning, Kathy told me it would have been weird if she and her newly-declared husband, L, [...]

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Just Another Tuesday Afternoon

I ‘went away’ for a bit to chat with Kathy, an internal helper, and apparently the kids went a bit mad.  Mairead, in all her greatness, was watching them, but they managed to get away with my mobile phone and text my best friend.  They were *very* proud of having outsmarted the ‘big peoples’ and [...]

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