I’ve been thinking quite alot about my mother lately. We’ve just passed her birthday, and, for some reason, I’ve missed her more this year. It might well be because of losing the baby. I would love for my parents to have met their granddaughter, and with her death, I just wanted my mother there to [...]
Posts Tagged ‘family of choice’
Memories
Posted in Abuse, Friends & Family, Grief & Loss, Mental Health, Therapy, tagged Abuse, best friend, family of choice, grief, memories, Mental Health, Therapy on 4 March 2012 | 3 Comments »
Distractions
Posted in Abuse, Friends & Family, Mental Health, Ritual Abuse, tagged Abuse, best friend, cults, dissociation, family of choice, memories, Mental Health, satanic ritual abuse on 2 October 2011 | Leave a Comment »
The last time I was hurt by the Really Bad People, one thing that distracted me was the thought that my best friend is coming with me next summer to see my FOC. He hasn’t been there in three years, so I had to make it through. That was a relatively constant chorus in my [...]
Transformations
Posted in Friends & Family, Grief & Loss, Mental Health, Ritual Abuse, tagged Abuse, cults, family of choice, grief, Mental Health, Monkees, Shades of Gray, sisters, song lyrics, sra programming, suicide on 7 September 2011 | Leave a Comment »
I think one of the saddest things one can see is the transformation in the eyes of a child who goes through tragedy. This change was quite clear in my sister’s eyes, and I’ll never forget that. My sister was an accident, to say the least. The cult wanted my parents to have only two [...]
Labels
Posted in Abuse, Dissociative Identity Disorder, General Ranting, Mental Health, Ritual Abuse, tagged Abuse, best friend, DID systems, Dissociative Identity Disorder, family of choice, frustration, Mental Health, rant, satanic ritual abuse, self awareness on 8 August 2011 | 1 Comment »
I’ve been thinking quite alot lately about terms used to refer to people with DID. The most common, of course, is ‘multiple.’ Being called that makes my skin crawl, though, so I’ve spent some time trying to figure out the cause of such an extreme reaction. Disclaimer: This is my opinion about my experience as [...]
Ghosts
Posted in Friends & Family, Grief & Loss, Mental Health, tagged child loss, emotions, family of choice, grief, hospitals, Mental Health, parental bereavement, stillbirth on 2 August 2011 | 2 Comments »
Last week I had the absolute privilege and honour to stay with my family of choice who live at a distance from me. I only see them once a year, and I cherish every minute of our time together. Even though parts of the week were a bit mad, it ended with the peace, fun, [...]
Flashbacks & Realisations
Posted in Abuse, Dissociative Identity Disorder, Mental Health, Ritual Abuse, Therapy, tagged Abuse, alters, best friend, child alters, cults, Dissociative Identity Disorder, family of choice, flashbacks, Lily, satanic ritual abuse, Therapy, Torchwood on 3 April 2011 | 2 Comments »
My best friend and I were watching Torchwood on Friday night, as we’ve taken to doing relatively frequently, and I got thrown in to a flashback. The show is primarily science fiction. This episode, however, involved nothing more than incredibly sick human beings. I felt myself tensing a bit, but nothing really pressing alarmed me. [...]
Stillness
Posted in Friends & Family, Grief & Loss, Health, tagged family of choice, grief, parental bereavement, pregnancy, stillbirth on 31 December 2010 | 6 Comments »
My daughter was stillborn on Monday, 27 Dec. at 3:17 AM. I had been having cramps and spotty bleeding, but nothing showed up on ultrasound, so the OB wasn’t overly concerned. He just told me to rest and keep watch on things. Late the night of the 26th, though, the cramps developed in contractions and [...]
A Toast
Posted in Friends & Family, Grief & Loss, Mental Health, tagged best friend, family of choice, grief, siblings, suicide on 7 December 2010 | Leave a Comment »
to my younger sister, who would have been 22 on Saturday and passed away from suicide 10 years ago today. Words cannot do this child justice. She was one of the most interesting people I’ve ever had the pleasure to meet, and we miss her dearly. Many thanks to my friend D who was the [...]
Changes
Posted in Dissociative Identity Disorder, Friends & Family, tagged alters, best friend, DID systems, Dissociative Identity Disorder, family of choice, Mairead, pregnancy, teen alters on 15 November 2010 | Leave a Comment »
I seem to have found myself a bit pregnant. Now, for the those of you who are still breathing or have regained consciousness, let me explain that little experience. Mairead had been having an on-again off-again relationship with someone. At first, I knew about the relationship and was OK with it. Yes, the relationship was [...]
Those Three Months
Posted in Abuse, Friends & Family, Mental Health, Ritual Abuse, tagged Abuse, best friend, cults, family of choice, Mental Health, satanic ritual abuse, self awareness on 31 July 2010 | 2 Comments »
I stayed with my best friend and his family in late 2005. It was an odd time in my life. Very transitional. My parents had been dead for a year, and, as horrible as it sounds, it was somewhat a relief to know they couldn’t hurt me or call upon others (in my father’s case) [...]
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