to use an American phrase that sometimes says it perfectly. I’m having trouble. Today, I’m hypo-manic but rapid cycling all the same. I can’t slow down my thoughts, which are racing from intense anger to deep sadness. My hands are literally shaking from the energy, and I can’t deal with even the slightest of changes [...]
Posts Tagged ‘frustration’
Bipolar Disorder Sucks
Posted in Dissociative Identity Disorder, Mental Health, tagged atypical antipsychotics, best friend, bipolar disorder, Dissociative Identity Disorder, frustration, Mental Health, psychiatrist, side effects, stress, Zyprexa on 12 September 2011 | Leave a Comment »
An All-about Rant
Posted in Dissociative Identity Disorder, General Ranting, Health, Ritual Abuse, Therapy, tagged anger, Dissociative Identity Disorder, frustration, rant, satanic ritual abuse, strep throat, Therapy on 9 September 2011 | Leave a Comment »
Permit me what will definitely be a rant and what might actually be a whine. 2011 has *not* been a good year, to understate tremendously. My daughter’s memorial service was held exactly one week in to the year, and the grief issues have been fairly constant since. In April, we lost our house and most [...]
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Posted in Abuse, Dissociative Identity Disorder, General Ranting, Mental Health, Ritual Abuse, tagged Abuse, best friend, DID systems, Dissociative Identity Disorder, family of choice, frustration, Mental Health, rant, satanic ritual abuse, self awareness on 8 August 2011 | 1 Comment »
I’ve been thinking quite alot lately about terms used to refer to people with DID. The most common, of course, is ‘multiple.’ Being called that makes my skin crawl, though, so I’ve spent some time trying to figure out the cause of such an extreme reaction. Disclaimer: This is my opinion about my experience as [...]
Meh
Posted in General Ranting, Mental Health, Ritual Abuse, Therapy, tagged Abuse, frustration, Mental Health, rant, satanic ritual abuse, suicide, Therapy on 27 February 2011 | 3 Comments »
Perfect one-syllable response sometimes. I have been so exhausted lately, physically and mentally. In spite of the need for money, I took off from work today. That almost never happens. I’m just too tired to think clearly tonight. My therapist, who I’ve been seeing for two years, just realised that I come to therapy to [...]
Swings and Roundabouts
Posted in General Ranting, Health, Mental Health, Therapy, tagged bipolar disorder, frustration, Mental Health, stress, Therapy on 14 February 2011 | 5 Comments »
It’s an English phrase meaning each advantage of a situation comes with a disadvantage. To me, it’s feeling like a very appropriate description of bipolar disorder. My moods are swinging in pendulum fashion, and my thoughts are going round and round in incoherent flashes. I’ve missed work, which leads to financial issues, and my ability [...]
Spiralling
Posted in General Ranting, Mental Health, Ritual Abuse, tagged depression, frustration, Mental Health, satanic ritual abuse, suicide on 31 January 2011 | 8 Comments »
Just last week, my therapist and I were talking about how things are difficult but I’ve not gone in to a tail spin. In response, apparently, I’ve started feeling suicidal. This happens when it seems like everything that can go wrong does. In this case, it’s that one small thing after another has gone wrong [...]
Money and Such
Posted in General Ranting, tagged finances, frustration, stress, Universe on 21 January 2011 | 1 Comment »
Just finished budgeting and am now completely overwhelmed. I’m short about $200 in total next month, which means I can’t make my car payment. After that, I have a $56 margin. Tried to get more hours for work, but all of the sub hours have been taken. I’m feeling a bit pouty now, and rather [...]
Long, Dark Nights
Posted in Abuse, Dissociative Identity Disorder, General Ranting, Mental Health, Ritual Abuse, tagged Abuse, anger, cults, Dissociative Identity Disorder, frustration, satanic ritual abuse on 8 November 2009 | Leave a Comment »
I don’t want to believe in SRA. Nope. Never happened. This funny looking scar on my arm happened when I fell on a pyramid-shaped toy that happened to be rather hot. Here’s the problem with that logic– it doesn’t change what happened to me or all of the other SRA survivors out there. Neither our [...]
Welcome to Debtor’s Prison
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged anger, bankruptcy, collections agencies, communism, credit cards, economy, frustration, rant, stress on 23 October 2009 | 3 Comments »
I can’t afford to file bankruptcy. That’s one rather frightening realisation I came to during my Wednesday morning meeting with a bankruptcy lawyer. Mind you, I’m pressing on through this lovely little process. For those of you (the many, many of you) who are considering this journey, let me take you along mine for a [...]
Quick Update
Posted in Mental Health, tagged anger, Delightfully Scattered Thoughts, emotions, frustration, grief, grounding, Mental Health on 16 October 2009 | 3 Comments »
For those of you following this blog via RSS or just stopping by from time to time, I wanted to let you know I’m still about and quite near functional most of the time. The past, present and future has looked a bit daunting for some time. It’s still rather like that, but there is [...]
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