I’m dealing with something I do not understand and hoping some of you who read this blog can give me some insight. This is a rough time of year, of course. We’re coming on the first anniversary of my daughter’s death, just passed the 11th anniversary of my sister’s death, and are in the middle [...]
Posts Tagged ‘parental bereavement’
Unexplained Panic
Posted in Friends & Family, Grief & Loss, Health, Mental Health, tagged best friend, child loss, grief, Health, holidays, Mental Health, panic attacks, parental bereavement on 16 December 2011 | 4 Comments »
Holidays Suck
Posted in General Ranting, Grief & Loss, Mental Health, tagged child loss, grief, holidays, Mental Health, parental bereavement, stillbirth on 17 November 2011 | 1 Comment »
We’re headed in to the Most Wonderful Time of the Year, and I am feeling anything but festive. In fact, I just want to duck my head until it’s over. But that brings 2012, apocalyptic crap & other fun with SRA. Back to holidays… My daughter’s stillbirth happened on 27 Dec. I’m already anticipating that [...]
Hills & Valleys
Posted in Friends & Family, Grief & Loss, Mental Health, Music, Spirituality, tagged child loss, funerals, grief, Mental Health, parental bereavement, song lyrics, stillbirth, Universe on 30 August 2011 | 3 Comments »
I can’t seem to climb out of this grief valley right now. I know I will, but for now the sun is rather dark. That’s an interesting effect of grief- sometimes, sunny days truly do look dark. It’s beautiful outside today. The temperature is mild, the humidity is low, and there’s barely a cloud in [...]
Knives
Posted in General Ranting, Grief & Loss, Mental Health, Writings, tagged Delightfully Scattered Thoughts, grief, Mental Health, original poetry, parental bereavement, rant on 23 August 2011 | Leave a Comment »
Knives Each one cuts a little deeper. Jagged paths that leave shrapnel in their wake. Yet their destination is simple: They go straight through to the soul. Sparkling silver blades Reflect the darkness left behind As body and mind are stripped Of all that makes a person human. Scabs thicken around each wound Creating a [...]
Ghosts
Posted in Friends & Family, Grief & Loss, Mental Health, tagged child loss, emotions, family of choice, grief, hospitals, Mental Health, parental bereavement, stillbirth on 2 August 2011 | 2 Comments »
Last week I had the absolute privilege and honour to stay with my family of choice who live at a distance from me. I only see them once a year, and I cherish every minute of our time together. Even though parts of the week were a bit mad, it ended with the peace, fun, [...]
Memorial Poem
Posted in Friends & Family, Grief & Loss, Mental Health, tagged child loss, grief, memorial poetry, parental bereavement, poetry, stillbirth on 27 June 2011 | 2 Comments »
I have no idea who wrote this poem, but I am incredibly grateful to him or her. A fellow bereaved parent recommended the poem to me when I was floundering about trying to find the perfect words for my daughter’s memorial cards. It’s not the greatest in terms of the techniques of poetry, but that [...]
Six Months
Posted in Friends & Family, Grief & Loss, Mental Health, tagged child loss, emotions, flashbacks, grief, Mental Health, parental bereavement, stillbirth on 26 June 2011 | 2 Comments »
In a few hours we’ll reach the six-month mark of when my beautiful daughter was stillborn. In part, I feel like it’s an accomplishment- I’ve lived with this pain for six months. The prevailing feeling is one of fear, though. I feel like she’s getting further and further away as time passes. I always want [...]
Mother’s Day
Posted in Friends & Family, Grief & Loss, Mental Health, tagged child loss, emotions, grief, Mental Health, parental bereavement on 8 May 2011 | 1 Comment »
I lost my mother seven years ago, but I’ve never experienced the pain of Mother’s Day after having lost my daughter until this year. It is so overwhelming that I’ve literally found it hard to breathe. Wishing a happy Mother’s Day to those of you celebrating that bond and a peaceful Mother’s Day to everyone [...]
Clearing Up
Posted in Friends & Family, Grief & Loss, Mental Health, tagged child loss, grief, Mental Health, parental bereavement on 30 March 2011 | 2 Comments »
I’ve spent today going through maternity clothes that were given to me, as well as little toys and things people bought for my daughter. Now, I’m trying to get the courage to take them to Goodwill. It’s odd, though, looking at those bags and thinking all of the plans I had for my daughter are [...]
Across the Abyss
Posted in Friends & Family, Grief & Loss, Mental Health, Spirituality, tagged child loss, grief, Mental Health, parental bereavement, stillbirth on 10 March 2011 | 1 Comment »
I was doing well today. Actually, the day was average. I’m fine with average. Boring can be really good. Then tonight came, and I miss my daughter. I’ve been having horrible dreams about the day I walked in and found my sister’s body. That sight still bothers me tremendously sometimes. In the dreams, though, my [...]
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