I am *angry.* Not the positive, motivating anger. The boiling over, feel like screaming anger. And I don’t particularly know why. It’s not an emotion I’m accustomed to. The obvious guess, of course, is that grief is making me angry. Time of year, as far as SRA goes, also stirs up some powerful Stuff. I [...]
Posts Tagged ‘stress’
This Is New
Posted in General Ranting, Mental Health, tagged anger, emotions, grief, Mental Health, satanic ritual abuse, stress on 30 November 2011 | Leave a Comment »
Bipolar Disorder Sucks
Posted in Dissociative Identity Disorder, Mental Health, tagged atypical antipsychotics, best friend, bipolar disorder, Dissociative Identity Disorder, frustration, Mental Health, psychiatrist, side effects, stress, Zyprexa on 12 September 2011 | Leave a Comment »
to use an American phrase that sometimes says it perfectly. I’m having trouble. Today, I’m hypo-manic but rapid cycling all the same. I can’t slow down my thoughts, which are racing from intense anger to deep sadness. My hands are literally shaking from the energy, and I can’t deal with even the slightest of changes [...]
Adults & Self Injury
Posted in Abuse, Dissociative Identity Disorder, Mental Health, Ritual Abuse, tagged Abuse, Dissociative Identity Disorder, ForgottenSI, Mental Health, online communities, self injury, stress, Yahoo groups on 4 June 2011 | Leave a Comment »
A dear friend of mine started a Yahoo group and a blog for adults aged 25 and older who self-injure, as well as for those who care for them. In trying to help someone who fits that category, she sat about researching the problem and found that most resources about SI focused on teens. She’s [...]
Breaking Points
Posted in Friends & Family, General Ranting, Mental Health, tagged Abuse, depression, family, Mental Health, stress on 20 February 2011 | 1 Comment »
All those years ago when I was supporting my mother and sister, I knew that if I broke everything broke. That might sound dramatic, but it was true. At one point, soon after my father left, the rent and all the trappings of supporting a family fell on me. Anyone would have done that– in [...]
Swings and Roundabouts
Posted in General Ranting, Health, Mental Health, Therapy, tagged bipolar disorder, frustration, Mental Health, stress, Therapy on 14 February 2011 | 5 Comments »
It’s an English phrase meaning each advantage of a situation comes with a disadvantage. To me, it’s feeling like a very appropriate description of bipolar disorder. My moods are swinging in pendulum fashion, and my thoughts are going round and round in incoherent flashes. I’ve missed work, which leads to financial issues, and my ability [...]
Money and Such
Posted in General Ranting, tagged finances, frustration, stress, Universe on 21 January 2011 | 1 Comment »
Just finished budgeting and am now completely overwhelmed. I’m short about $200 in total next month, which means I can’t make my car payment. After that, I have a $56 margin. Tried to get more hours for work, but all of the sub hours have been taken. I’m feeling a bit pouty now, and rather [...]
Pining for the Single Life
Posted in Dissociative Identity Disorder, General Ranting, Mental Health, Uncategorized, tagged alters, bipolar disorder, depression, Dissociative Identity Disorder, Lamictal, mania, Mental Health, rant, Seroquel, stress, teen alters on 10 November 2010 | Leave a Comment »
And by that, I mean life before I knew about the others in my head. It was simpler then. [Sad movie theme interrupted by sarcastic chuckle.] Things are a bit interesting here at the moment. Not bad interesting. Just different and a bit overwhelming. Although there have been more than a few upsets in my [...]
Welcome to Debtor’s Prison
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged anger, bankruptcy, collections agencies, communism, credit cards, economy, frustration, rant, stress on 23 October 2009 | 3 Comments »
I can’t afford to file bankruptcy. That’s one rather frightening realisation I came to during my Wednesday morning meeting with a bankruptcy lawyer. Mind you, I’m pressing on through this lovely little process. For those of you (the many, many of you) who are considering this journey, let me take you along mine for a [...]
Support for the Supporter
Posted in Dissociative Identity Disorder, General Ranting, tagged alters, anger, Dissociative Identity Disorder, emotions, expressing feelings, frustration, rant, relationships, significant others, stress on 27 August 2009 | 2 Comments »
Years ago, while searching online for information to help me in dealing with my mother’s DID, I found an excellent source of support and quickly signed up. In the decade or so I’ve been part of that group, I’ve been fortunate to meet people, some online and some in person, who have become like family [...]
Numb
Posted in Abuse, Dissociative Identity Disorder, Mental Health, Ritual Abuse, Therapy, tagged Abuse, Dissociative Identity Disorder, emotions, satanic ritual abuse, self injury, stress, Therapy on 19 June 2009 | 1 Comment »
My therapy assignment from this past session was to practice feeling emotions. I was supposed to find a safe place, attempt to summon an emotion, and really feel it. The idea was to pay close attention to my physiological responses so that I could use those to recognise emotions in a regular setting. I don’t [...]
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