The Pleasantly Boring Week So Far

This week has been relatively boring, which is actually a good thing.  I’ve found that life gets loud again soon enough.  Being stuck in a rut can be a great experience.

The Universe Is Out To Get Me bit started over the weekend and reached its peak this afternoon.  Even it wasn’t exactly a catastrophe.  Just annoying.  I’ve registered with a local staffing agency and was sent an online assessment for MS Word and Excel.  The tests were timed, which isn’t usually a factor in my performance.  These tests, however, became quite the thorn in my heel.  First, getting the bleedin’ things was nearly impossible.  A week after I emailed my contact information, I still hadn’t heard from the admin. assistant.  I phoned her up, and she was quite surprised, saying she had sent the tests much earlier that week.  I’ll certainly allow that as a possibility, but my guess is she either forgot to send them or sent them to a different email address.  In any event, they popped in to my inbox only a few minutes after that phone call.

The email contained a link to the online assessments as well as password and username information.  At the bottom was a notice that, if you were disconnected for whatever reason during the test, you could resume it by pressing the link.  It also warned that this could only be done once in a 24-hour period.  I assumed the time constraints were set in place only if you got disconnected.  Unfortunately, I was incorrect in my assumption.  Two days after receiving the online tests I logged in to take them– the login information had already expired.

I phoned the local office *again* thinking about the lovely impression I must have been making on my potential employer, and the information was emailed to me again.  No more than ten minutes after receiving the message I signed in to take the tests.  After completing the first test, I was promptly dismissed by my computer.  The connection was lost.  Muttering angrily to myself, I set off on the 36-mile drive to the University I attend.  But wait– the tests required MS Word and Excel *2003.*  The University labs have 2008, and the newer version would not work with the testing service.  Lovely.

Never one to accept defeat, I packed up my trusty laptop and began boldly blazing the trail.  (Isn’t alliteration fun?)  Then the shoulder strap on the laptop case broke, sending it careening spectacularly to the wood floor of the lounge at my house.  I’m not joking– the metal connector thingy literally broke in half.  But, to be very optimistic, at least it broke in my house as opposed to on campus.  To be even more optimistic, I’m now sitting in the campus library after having completed both tests and receiving high marks on both as well.  Not a bad end to what was definitely a more frustrating process than it should have been.

In other news, I’m preparing for a therapy visit next week.  I go to a subsidised clinic, as the sessions only cost $5 there and my funds are a bit low.  The American healthcare system isn’t set up like the NHS, but oddly enough, the wait to see my therapist met NHS standards– ten weeks.  😉  So much Stuff has passed through my mind in the past 10 weeks that I’m not at all sure where to begin.  We’ll have to do some internal searching about on that subject.  In any event, it will be good to actually speak with someone in a therapeutic environment again.  I’ve had this really odd and somewhat uncomfortable feeling lately.  It’s not something I have a word for quite yet, but I’m hoping we can suss that out with the therp’s help.

Do you think about what you’d like to talk with the therapist about before you go into the session, or do you prefer to see how things work out as you go along?  I’m never sure what the most helpful course of action would be.  It’s something we all have to figure out for ourselves anyway, I guess.

As you can likely tell from the somewhat useless information in this post, not a great lot is going on with me at the moment.  Or at least not a great lot that I can conceptualise.  To end things on a funny note, though, I saw something yesterday that I’d never seen before.  I went to a local park to study, and from a distance, it looked like a grey cat was sleeping on the table where I typically sit.  Upon getting a bit closer, I saw that it was a squirrel lying on its side, little hand tucked just slightly under its head, almost napping.  Hilarious.  If I’d been toting my camera, a picture of Mr Lazy Squirrel would grace the pages of this blog today.

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3 thoughts on “The Pleasantly Boring Week So Far

  1. I find preparing for T is usually a waste of time. It never quite goes that way when I try anyway or I get “static mind” or “white noise” when someone has changed their mind about talking about a subject to T. Seems that I do get some work done (on ourselves) while preparing for T though. It is ultimately a stressful use of my time, but I’m the one who has to heal ourselves, not T. I write things down so do I don’t forget, like a need for a new RX or something that really ticked off an alter during the week(like they’d let me forget – lol). Make sense?

  2. Hi Jackie, yes that absolutely makes sense. I love the phrase ‘static mind’ and can really relate to that. Frustrating when it happens in therapy, isn’t it? Thanks for writing.

  3. Hi, it must be really hard to have to wait for therapy for such a long time. How on earth are you supposed to establish a relationship of trust and safety with your therapist? The mind boggles. I have found – sitting in the therapist seat – that those parts with the greates energy … which I associate with the greatest need … will surface unless something that is said in the session or happened just before has triggered a particular part.

    My take is that it’s all ok. Recovery is such a complex issue and has to take care of so many things that it just takes time for virtually everything to be discussed and explored.

    Take care and go well
    Gudrun

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