There’s a progressive pattern that most children follow– they learn to crawl, then pull up, then stand on their own, and then take their first wobbly steps. Why shouldn’t those of us with internal children take those same steps in healing? I get frustrated and try to push things along at a higher rate of speed than I’m ready for at the moment. Regardless of the issue I’m dealing with, and regardless of its genesis, I want to have it already worked through. Now. That isn’t too much to ask, is it? 🙂
In fact, everything seems to go in baby steps. I’ve slowly made progress through my school programme and slowly made progress towards working out my financial issues. Sometimes the speed at which things developed made me panic. I began to worry that by the time I worked through some of the larger issues, my chance at actual life would be over. Those thoughts only served to make me feel resigned, beaten before I’d started. It’s only been through fighting my self(ves) constantly that I’ve started pushing past that. Sometimes it’s really quite funny– a few days ago, when the panic started, I said aloud ‘How is this helping me?’.
Departing from my own issues and entering the larger world, I just read that Swindon is scraping some of the fixed-point speed cameras. I’m not certain yet if that’s progress or simply a change the area, and the country at large, isn’t quite prepared for yet. In any event, I wish them success and safety.