To My Daughter

I wrote this letter to my daughter and wanted to share it here as a sort of tribute to her…

Dear M N,

I love you so much, and I would give anything to hold you in my arms. Even though you’ll never get the chance to smile, I’ve seen your smile a thousand times. I’ve heard your baby giggle, watched you take your first glimpse at this world, and felt the warmth of you growing heavier as you fell asleep in my arms. I lived these things over and over in our brief time together. I imagined you as a toddler. M and I were in awe simply thinking of you as a teenager.

We’ll never get to see or know these things about you. One thing I’m sure of, though, is that you were meant to be in our lives. I’ll never understand why you danced through our lives so quickly, but you gave us such hopes and dreams. You brought so much happiness as we imagined our lives with you as part of them. T, who would have been like a grandmother to you, already had you decked out in princess gear. M was already thinking about the fun you would have had. And I was dreaming of all the possibilities that would have been laid out before you. You definitely would have been a star in our lives.

Now, as I tell you goodbye before I get a chance to tell you hello, I want you to know how proud I am of you for the difference you made and the dreams you inspired. We love you so much and hope that you are surrounded by happiness and peace. My beautiful daughter, I miss the child you would have become, the teen who would have brought both grey hair and laughter, and the strong, courageous woman you would surely have grown up to be. I miss the very thought of you.

Now there’s nothing left to say except goodbye, my beautiful baby girl. You will always be a part of me, and no matter what variety of time and space separates us, a part of me will be there to guide and protect you. We will be bonded by the love that can only be shared between a mother and a daughter, and you will always be the beautiful little star who twinkled so briefly in our lives but changed them forever.

All my love, dear child, is with you.

Love, Mummy

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3 thoughts on “To My Daughter

  1. That was very poignant. Thank you for sharing it. Have you
    considered naming your daughter? I did that for mine and I have
    heard of others doing that. I did not know their genders, so I gave
    them either neutral names or a boy and a girl name, each. I offer
    hugs of comfort to you.

    • Thank you for your words of comfort. We had named her, and the service announcements were personalised just for my precious girl. Just used her initials to keep anonymity on the blog.

      • Oops! I can’t believe I did not connect the initials to
        naming her. I am glad you did that…and also glad to read that had
        a service for her. I think those things are important.

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