This morning, I had a negative eureka moment. You know, those times when your behaviour sneaks up to show you the negative side effects. I was confused about side effects of bulimia and got some great information by way of comments on this post. Today, my body is reminding me that it does, afterall, have a problem with the disorder. I truly did not recognise the side effects until this morning.
The daily spells of vertigo got me started thinking on this issue. That brought up the extreme aches and general fogginess I’ve experienced over the past few days, as well. I placed it all on another health concern I deal with, not thinking for a tick that bulimia could be to blame. There’s been no binging or purging for quite some time now, but the pattern of restricting never stopped. It got better, but it did not stop.
I’ll use this week as an example. It’s Friday, and, based on the freakishly meticulous notes I take on what I eat, I’ve consumed 1885 calories. I remember having a sensation of hunger once in the entire week, so the obvious symptom isn’t there. I think that’s one of the dangers of eating disorders, as well as my reason for writing this post. If you have an eating disorder, don’t assume you’re fine just because you feel no overt symptoms. This is something I’ve only just learnt. It might sound quite hypocritical for me to point that out, but I fully recognise the issue I’m dealing with right now. Knowing the problem and working to correct it are two very different things, though.