Ever leave therapy more frustrated than when you got there? That was my session yesterday. I’ve had a great deal of frustration lately, and the therapy session was more like a rant session for both the therapist and me. Simply talking about frustration is never helpful to me. I have to actually *work* in order to feel satisfied with the session. Nothing got done, and thinking about frustrating events only brought back the anger I was feeling at the time. Lovely.
So what’s the point of this post? I’m glad you asked. The point is to decipher the whole therapy process. It is, after all, important work. My concept is going in, stating a problem or maladaptive thought/behaviour, and deciding on a plan. The next step is activating that plan. I get very annoyed when life gets in the way of therapy, though. I couldn’t work on the drawing because my thoughts were all caught up in the minor annoyances. My brain was almost manic. I flitted from topic to topic so quickly that nothing got resolved.
My plan was to go in and keep working on the drawing. The therapist did ask me about that, but she picked up immediately on the idea that I was completely avoiding the topic. And that’s the problem– I wasn’t *intentionally* avoiding the topic. I just couldn’t get my mind centred enough to discuss anything of value. Rant sessions are fine from time to time, but I expect even those to serve a purpose. I left therapy frustrated, annoyed, and attempting not to let any of that cross over in my demeanour.
Here’s to next session. 😐