Everything feels unreal to me at the moment. The holiday season is so bittersweet, and whilst I’ve had a few triumphs this year, I still feel overwhelmed by it all. I’m really trying this year, but I truly do not feel connected to a single person, pet, deity, or object. I feel like I’ve settled in to nothingness. On the outside, things look fine. I function as I always have, stand in for friends when they need me, and take care of all the practical things that make a life. Inside, though, I feel a sense of blackness and nonexistence that’s so deep it’s almost an ache. Whatever this is, I just hope it passes soon.