Some things are best left static. I tried to change the theme of this blog yesterday, to put a physical mark on the changes taking place in content. However, I’ve circled back round to this theme. The header is just so bloody beautiful. Misty and cool with a hint of mystery. And so it shall remain.
See? Not every post on this blog will be deep and introspective. 🙂
It occurs to me that, since I have started blogging again, this blog will likely take on a new direction. I’m not the same person I was when I first started the blog, and I haven’t got the same concerns. Back then, life was all about finishing graduate school and coping with the recently-divulged secret of my multiplicity. Now, grad school is a distant accomplishment, and I am fully integrated. Life has definitely changed. Looking back at old posts, even the tone of my writing has changed. Frightening and exciting all at once.
So what am I doing now? Glad you asked. Now, my life focuses primarily on bipolar disorder– something that can’t be resolved via therapy– and veganism/animal rights. As well, I am proudly Wiccan and involve many Pagan practices in my daily life. These are the pieces of me that remain post-integration. I still deal with trauma flashbacks and will likely write about that subject from time to time. It’s no longer a daily focus, though. Now, my life is about using my beliefs to walk as gently as possible on the Earth. I feel whole in my mind and spirit, so my focus is sharper on the causes I support.
That’s the funny thing about change– it’s ok! We all change as life progresses, but we never lose our value. Thanks for following along with this new leg in my journey, dear readers. I hope you continue to share parts of your journey, as well.
I’m going to try, at least for now, to update this blog more frequently. This is part of a grand effort to reconnect with myself. Yesterday, I felt like nothing. Not in the degraded sense. Just in the emotionless-floating-in-nowhere sense. I read some quite old posts from this blog and realised that I feel almost no connection to who I am now. This might be due, in part, to the integration, but it’s also due to my secluding myself.
Years ago, I had school and work outside of the home. Now, I have an in-home job and almost no social circle. I do not attend social functions, and even a trip to the shops can be overwhelming. My social anxiety feeds on the lack of need to leave my house, and it’s time to reconnect with the world, as well. It’s time to force myself out, kicking and screaming all the way.
So what are my grand plans? I have been looking for a job outside my house, but that will be debated with my therapist soon. In terms of socialisation, I’m thinking of attending a local support group for people with mental illnesses. What better place to start than somewhere where others are struggling, too? It isn’t much, but it’s a start.
In terms of the deeply personal, I do plan to start blogging again. I also plan to start journalling again, or at least writing fiction. Something to draw me out of my head. When I had alters, it was easier to escape my thoughts; I’d just let someone else get lost in theirs for a while. Now, it’s up to me to plan my own escape from my mind and in to the real world. Again, kicking and screaming all the way.
A lovely reader just alerted me via email of a problem posting comments. If anyone has got a message saying their comment cannot be posted, please know that you aren’t being ignored. There is apparently a problem with the Comment Gods, as I’m not getting notices of pending comments at all. Sorry about that!
I will try to suss this out as soon as possible. In the meantime, please feel free to email me with anything you’d like to say. Click the ’email me’ link on the sidebar or just send a message to email@example.com
Just wanted to send along a thanks to all of you who read, subscribe, and leave some wonderful insight. Without you…well, there would still be this blog. It would just be alot less interesting. 😉
Thanks for reading! I wish you all the absolute best in the upcoming year.
Peace, love, and hope to us all.
This blog is growing in popularity every day it seems, and I wanted to say thanks to all of my readers. Over the years, your emails and comments, as well as the simple fact that statistics show you’re reading, have enriched my life. I hope you’ve found something useful here, as well!
Given the subject of late, I should say I’m not writing a farewell here. I plan to keep blogging as long as people keep reading. Just voicing my appreciation to all of you. Thanks! 🙂
to commend whoever or whatever bot just left the entire American Declaration of Independence as a spam comment on this blog. Very nice! Now…can you spare some of your free time for me?
My apologies to anyone who has tried to contact me recently via the email account linked to this blog. I just realised tonight that mail from the account was bouncing back to the sender. That problem is resolved. If you’d like to contact me via email, send to: firstname.lastname@example.org
It’s the holidays! And, that means it’s time for DST to get its annual holiday makeover. Hope your holiday season is filled with peace and love. 🙂
Bless the spammers who try. I don’t get a great deal of spam comments on this blog (Thanks WordPress). When I do get spam, though, it’s usually a chain of bizarre letters or numbers sent by someone with an email address that would make most email clients explode in confusion.
Some, however, are more ambitious. Lately, the spam message I’ve been getting is something along the lines of ‘good post, I’m going to blog about this too!’ I got an even more ambitious one today– ‘I don’t have a bunch to say about this, but…’ I can’t remember the rest of it. That’s hilarious, though. A spammer left a lukewarm comment on my blog.
So to all of you spammers who merely send chains of letters and number, you’ve got competition. At least leave me a lukewarm comment. I love knowing how spammers feel about my writing. 🙂